I realised i got no place & nobody to rant to. You can't trust humans, because you'd never know when they'll tell your secrets to someone else. Maybe your enemy perhaps?
I doubt anybody will find this blog, unless i place the link in my facebook or something. So i guess i can just say whatever i want here? Hahaha.
Life's a mess. Having emotional thoughts almost everyday. I don't like poly. I prefer my secondary school days. Days were so much more enjoyable that time, unlike now. It's practically going to war everyday, with those classmates of yours mugging all the way even exams are over. & i hate to accept the fact that all humans are selfish. They won't help you even when you're in need. But this harsh reality made me know that i have to accept it. Sad or not? It's so tired. I went for war everyday for 1.5years already. I'm getting sick of it. I thought a change in environment would be good.
Went to Taiwan during the 2 weeks break after Common Test. I enjoyed the days there. At least i don't have to think about WORK or anything else. I'd really want to travel around the world when i grow up :) Life in Singapore has really made Singaporeans workaholics. All we do is study, work, sleep, and the cycle repeats.
I'm drifting away from NPCC (which i suppose is a good thing?). Perhaps due to school commitments. I seldom go to HQ anymore, & the last time i went was SYF 2012 where i practically knew no one from the later batches of CIs. But the impression they gave me can only be described using 1 word. Practical. It's pretty obvious that they went for parades is just to clock their HQ hours, and to collect crest tees. & once they finish clocking their hours, poooof, they disappear. How disappointing to have such CIs these days? I hope they'll prove me wrong (but i'm remaining skeptical about this). Finished talking about HQ. Let's talk about Unit. Nothing much, just feeling that my presence isn't really needed. This feeling is really confusing, i can't use words to describe. I just feel that for someone who has went thru 3 weeks of course and someone who has not went thru this hell 3 weeks, & they receive the same respect from the cadets is unfair. So why did i even go for the course since not going i can also receive the same level of respect? I really don't get it. Someone enlighten me perhaps? & now sec4s&5s from the unit are choosing the easier way out, which is not going for the course. Because they see no point in it. I feel that way too. If i was given a choice, i wouldn't even have went for the course, because all i feel now is a bloody waste of my 3 weeks in HTA.
